Thursday, September 22, 2016

Some Stuff, Some Things

Wednesday: 1 Steph: 0

There is a mouse in our house. Tuesday night Jethro was patrolling the kitchen and watching behind the stove for a while and I thought something was up. So naturally I shut myself upstairs and texted Justin to check out the situation when he got home. He verified that yes, he did see a mouse, but Jethro chased it to the basement before he could catch it. So he set up some little (humane) traps and as far as we know it's still at large.

It started storming in the middle of the night last night. Between getting up to pee and being woken up by thunder, not much sleep was had. Around 4:30 a huge flash of lightning woke me up, and I realized that Justin wasn't in bed so of course I couldn't go back to sleep. (He had gone downstairs to shut a window that was left open and check the water situation in the basement) I finally fell asleep again around 5:30...and then my alarm went off at 5:45.

What kind of sick joke is it to pair insomnia with not being able to have caffeine?! All day I wished that I was nestled all snug in my bed, while visions of Mountain Dew danced in my head. Obviously keeping baby healthy is more important than my caffeine fix, but lemmejusttellya. It was rough. 

On this week's episode of "What Madt the Pregnant Lady Cry", we have the song Courtesy of the Red, White, and Blue by Toby Keith. What in the actual eff? I hadn't heard that song in years but a few days ago it came on while I was in the car and I was overcome with American pride pregnancy hormones and got all choked up.

I need some new show recommendations if you've got them. I'm cycling through Gilmore Girls again and while I'm okay with the fact that my baby will probably come out singing "Where you lead, I will follow...", I'm ready for something different.

It has been raining on and off all day and is supposed to storm through the night and all day tomorrow. If you need me I'll be curled up on the couch under a pile of blankets watching the Emmys on Hulu hiding from the mouse and mourning the days when I was able to sleep through the night.

Thursday, September 1, 2016

So This is Happening...

Is it even worth it to mention that I planned on blogging more frequently this summer? Maybe not.

Being pregnant following a loss is a very interesting thing. While I am filled with excitement, joy, and thanks I can't help but feel the nerves, fear, and anxiety of 'what-ifs'. It also breaks my heart that our baby in heaven will not get to know this little one, and the other way around.

But here we are, almost through the thirteenth week. I had a fun few weeks of vomiting if I didn't eat at regular intervals and hungry = nauseated. Then I would try eating and food repulsed me. I seem to be easing out of that (see: hungry all the time), but I still need to be kept away from all of the grilled chicken or I will gag.

There have been lots of irrational tears brought on by hormones. Example: A few days ago we had friends over and I was putting together a nacho bar for dinner. I made the taco meat ahead of time and was going to heat it up in the crock pot. I took the pot out of the crock pot to wipe it off, set it on the table, and poured all of the taco meat into the well of the crock pot. Then there were tears. This is also an example of pregnancy brain.
While I was on my summer schedule I took full advantage of comfy clothes all day long. I finally bit the bullet and bought some maternity pants for teaching because pants with buttons are torture right now.

Naps are another thing I enjoyed over the summer. I've never been much of a nap person but this is a whole new kind of tired. Now add in school and take my naps away? It's been rough. I have been told that my energy would come back sometime during the second trimester. I'm ready for that step now, please.

Now, please excuse me while I go inhale the pizza and brownies that Justin ordered for dinner.